I had a job interview today so I showed up all dressed up, struggling to walk in my mother’s heels that are a little to small for me, and apparently they got their times mixed up so now I have to go back tomorrow afternoon for my real interview. I did meet the girl that will be interviewing me and she seems nice though. I hope that I get this job. I hope a whole lot that I get it. Because my current job is only getting worse and hours are getting cut because it’s been so slow lately. If I get this full time job on top of the second job I’ll be starting soon, I won’t have any money problems anymore, or at least I won’t be scraping by every month. I’ve gone through so many interviews that it’s getting discouraging, but no way in hell I’m going to stop until I find something better, because I know I’m capable of more.
In other news, it’s obvious that I need to go back to school because I did my boyfriend’s English homework today and loved every minute of it.
Unconditional love. That’s what this is. I love him, as is, fully. I’ve had to stop arm wrestling with the facts. Why me? Didn’t I already have a big love once? And lost it? So why should I get it again? I’ve had to stop trying to look for cracks and flaws to prove that it’s not as good as it seems. Because it’s as good as it seems. Even when we fight, we fight inside the container of good.
Somehow, through a flip of the coin, I ended up here. Feeling like somebody at the top of the heart-lung transplant recipient list. Damaged but invigorated and fucking lucky.
It’s been almost a week in our new place and I am absolutely in love with it. I’m so proud and we’re so happy. Saturday my amazing family came to visit and helped me move a bunch of furniture in. Thanks to my Momma, I have become incredibly thrifty and was able to find a lot of cheap and beautiful furniture. So now we have furniture in our living room and a table for our kitchen. All that’s left really is the decorating, which we’ll do over time. I can’t wait to start our horror movie themed living room. I’ve never had a place feel so much like home before. I’m so thankful. I’ll post pictures sometime soon.
Moving into our new place today! Just met with our very nice landlady and picked up our keys. Definitely need some furniture but that will come in time. Spending the day moving in. So excited right now!